i’m so thankful for your support thus far. to say that this was a big adjustment is an understatement…i got here on wednesday and felt like i got punched in the stomach. it still makes me cry to think about how i felt on wednesday – i felt totally lost and confused. i was ready to turn around and go home. in an instant the excitement and confidence i had was gone – replaced by anxiety. today, on day 2 of orientation, i still feel less than confident, but i’m settling in. mostly i am feeling lost – like i don’t know where i fit…i’m with some wonderful students, just searching for my little corner…
i still cry fairly regularly and wrestle with feeling comfortable and secure that this is the right place for me. i do not question that God brought me here, i know that without a doubt, but right now it’s hard to take comfort in that. i guess if my passion is to know God and live authentically then i can be 100% confident that this uncomfortable situation is bringing me closer to him. it sure is hard…but God is good.
i miss being so connected to you all, but we’ll get into the swing of things. you are special to me and i am so grateful that you are supporting me.