YWAM Antigua

hey friends.

i arrived in antigua, guatemala today while you all were getting out of church. my team left chico on saturday nite, traveled through the night with 5 children and arrived safely with really no hassles! thank you for praying for us – there were some times that could have been much worse…so your prayers were powerful!

the country is beautiful – i love it here! as long as we’re on the ywam base I will have internet access to keep you updated! i’m also blogging for ywam on behalf of my entire team, so once I get that going i’ll share it with you too!

i still don’t really have an idea of the ministries we’ll support here, but my team has prepared dramas and testimonies, as well as some kids programs and puppet shows. as i know more i’ll let you know.

i hope you each know how special you are to me – your prayer means more than you can imagine! i know God is doing big things in me – He prepared me for this trip in some very specific ways and i know He will do great things through my team and me. keep praying for peace.

i love you all dearly.

it’s the last week…

hey friends!

i only have 4 more sleeps til i leave for outreach – wow!  i can’t believe how quickly the time has gone!  when i got here to ywam chico and lecture phase began – outreach seemed so far away…but the time has nearly come.

as i prepare for outreach i am overwhelmed with the honor that i have to carry God’s Kingdom into Guatemala.  i am so thankful for God’s grace – it is sufficient, precisely cut to meet my needs – no matter how needy i feel in Guatemala i will have the same measure of grace bestowed upon me.

please pray for my team and for me as we prepare to leave.  pray peace over us – pray that the peace of Christ would rule in our hearts.  pray for safety and protection – i believe we travel and minister with a special grace and anointing for this time.  God called us here and will keep us safe.  pray for unity – i believe my team’s greatest strength and ministry will be the testimony of our unity.  we will be an unstoppable force and presence in Guatemala in our unity.  pray that each person would keep no accounts of wrongdoing and that each one of us would choose the highest good for the others.

i’ll update the blog as best as i can – otherwise check Facebook for updates too…i love you all so much and am thankful that you are part of this journey!

weeks 8 & 9

friends!

i cannot believe that i’m leaving for Guatemala in two weeks!  i want to thank you all for the part you are playing in this adventure – a piece of each one of you is coming with me on outreach…between your financial support, your prayers, and encouraging words, i am so blessed and cared for!  i am about $100 away from paying off my school/outreach fees – thanks for stepping up friends – you’re support means so much to me.  i am honored to go on outreach on your behalf – i’m representing you all as i go – we are invading Guatemala and Belize as ambassadors of the Kingdom of God.

these last weeks of lecture were wonderful – two more weeks about hearing God’s voice and becoming more aware of His presence, tapping into the Holy Spirit’s power for evangelism and ministry.  so much is happening – too much to even tell you on the blog, i must have coffee with each of you when i get home so we can talk in person.  God is so good!

i’m beginning to settle on some future directions for the season of life when DTS is over…i can’t wait to share some details with you 🙂  in the meantime – my mom sent me these verses today…i’m claiming them for my future ministry – they so perfectly articulate the desires of my heart.  so i’ll leave you with this:

even though i am free of the demands and expectations of everyone, i have voluntarily become a servant to any and all in order to reach a wide range of people: religious, nonreligious, meticulous moralists, loose-living immoralists, the defeated, the demoralized – whoever.  i didn’t take on their way of life.  i kept my bearings in Christ – but i entered their world and tried to experience things from their point of view.  i’ve become just about every sort of servant there is in my attempts to lead those i meed into a God-saved life.  i did all of this because of the Message.  i didn’t just want to talk about it; i wanted to be in on it.

1 corinthians 9:19-23

 

weeks 6 and 7.

greetings from sunny california!  i am so thankful that the weather has remained warm and sunny – it does wonders for my mood 🙂

sorry i am behind on the blogging – life hit me hard the last 2 weeks…week 6 was lecture on spiritual warfare and our whole base knew it – we were all engaged in spiritual battles that week!  i struggled with a very self-critical attitude – i realized that i was carrying around this sack…a sack that was full of what i wasn’t doing well, what i needed to learn, what i needed to do better.  it was a heavy sack and i felt weary.  i was believing all these lies from the enemy – i wasn’t doing a good job, i was letting God down, i wasn’t going to succeed, i might miss something and then mess this up…i just let these lies swirl around in my head and i was so tired.  last week on friday, i set that sack down before the Lord and renounced the lies i was believing.  but i kept looking at the sack, worrying about it, struggling to not pick it up again and i was overcome with anxiety.  i was afraid to be alone with my thoughts – afraid that i would pick the sack back up.

this past week, week 7, our lecture was about hearing God’s voice.  i realized that my stinking thinking was clogging the canals of my mind, keeping me from hearing God’s voice.  i want God’s thoughts to be my thoughts and God’s heart to be my heart – so you better believe i am keeping my mind clear!  God is unlocking new ministries and new desires in my heart and i am continually renewing my mind so i can hear His voice.  i have the authority to grab the lies and throw them out of my mind – i can walk in freedom and never go back to that place of captivity.  each morning i can put on the mind of Christ and speak His truth to others.

so friends, that’s where i am – God is good and faithful!  less than 4 weeks til Guatemala and Belize – please keep my team in your prayers.  i appreciate each one of you!

peace to you.

one year ago.

so friends, one year ago i was in haiti.  what a trip that was – i had such a wonderful time there and learned so much.  it really was an experience that changed the course of my year.  i never would have imagined being here at YWAM Chico one year after being in haiti.

i don’t know what else to say.  i felt very weary this week…tired from processing and tired of feeling inadequate and defeated.  i’m done with that – i’m choosing to see who i am, what i’m good at, where my gifts are, and i’m going to enjoy the gift of this season God gave me.  i don’t need to look ahead at what might be coming, i don’t need to anticipate how things might go and worry that i won’t be prepared after DTS.  here’s the deal:

“His divine power has granted to us all things that pertain to life and godliness, through the knowledge of him who called us to his own glory and excellence, by which he has granted to us his precious and very great promises, so that through them you may become partakers of the divine nature…” 2 Peter 1:3-4

i’m done carrying around the burden of what i’m not doing well enough and i’m walking in empowerment – i have all i need.

week 5…checking-in

hey friends.

i am nearly half-way thru lecture phase of DTS and i cannot believe it!  time seems to be going so fast – in about 108 days this season of life will be done…

when i first arrived in chico and considered why the Lord led me to DTS i looked at this as the next step towards finding a job, this was something to check off the list.  God is revealing to me that this is so much more than that.  my time here at DTS is about seeking God – letting him transform my heart and renew my mind.

i am learning so much about who God is and who i am.  God is my father who loves me, and his love flows through me into others.  friends – that’s what i want to be about.  i want to know God’s love so deep inside me that it flows out of me.  i want to bring truth and healing into people’s lives.  my very first support letter mentioned Isaiah 61:  “The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me, because the LORD has appointed me to bring good news to the poor, he has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to those who are bound;”  God is confirming that call on my life, and that is exciting!

psalm 34:4-5:  “I sought the LORD, and he answered me and delivered me from all my fears.  Those who look to him are radiant, and their faces shall never be ashamed.”  i also know that the Lord is changing my countenance and spirit.  i want to be radiant and bright, not weighed down in shame and fear.  it is such an encouragement to hear from friends on base that my eyes are bright and my face is glowing.  that’s what it’s about friends…

i really do love my time here – this week i’m feeling a little weary…i feel like i’m always “on” here, like there is always something to learn or ponder or process and that is exhausting.  i’m really praying that i find some ways to relax and feel restored while i’m here.

this week in lecture we learned about relationships – i love God by loving people.  it was a good week of lecture – i feel better equipped to talk about love and relationships with people i minister to.

friends, i really love you and appreciate your support.  so glad you are in my life.

week four…and outreach announcement!

hey friends – this week was so great.  we had this teaching called the divine plumb line, led by jerry praetzel.  the idea is that we all build walls based on lies we hear from false prophets in our lives.  the walls we build keep us disconnected, which is the opposite of the kingdom of God.  we were made for community and authenticity.  ezekiel 13:14 talks about breaking down whitewashed walls and in the process seeing the Lord.  so after two days of lecture, we spent time with our classmates breaking down walls.  some of us had deep pain and hurt we had to heal from, some of us caused deep pain and hurt we had to repent of…but each one of us had walls broken down.  the atmosphere of our classroom kept getting lighter and lighter as we brought lies to the light and replaced them with truth.  it was so wonderful, friends.  i am walking in new freedom – and settling into a lifestyle of openness and brokenness.  i want my life to be open and accessible to other people – so i have to open it first and clean out the lies.  the greatest tool for ministry i have is my life – being open about how Jesus healed the brokenness in my life and inviting others to walk in healing and freedom.

the glory of God is man fully alive.

also…i know where i’m going on outreach.  if you haven’t heard, i’m going to Belize and Guatemala.  i’m so over-the-moon happy – the Lord put Belize in my heart several months ago as a place I’d love to serve and i cannot believe how quickly that chance came!  i am still in the process of support-raising – i have $2000 left to pay for my outreach phase.  if you feel called to support me financially, you can send a check to YWAM Chico, written out to YWAM with my name in the memo line.

Mail to:

Youth With A Mission: Registrar

15850 Richardson Springs Rd.

Chico, CA 95973

have i mentioned how much i love you all?  thank you for praying for me – keep praying that i would be fully present in this process, that my support would come in, and that i would have clear direction for the next piece of this journey.  i’ll keep you posted!